posts tagged "poetry prose and random babbling"

So tomorrow I take my Microsoft exam again…

And I’m fucking freaking out. I have to pass it this time because if I don’t then the ratio of certified employees won’t be high enough because there’s only 4 people that work there and I’m the only system engineer right meow and what kind of system engineer can’t pass a fucking test and if I don’t pass it then the company could lose it’s credibility and it’s the 4th time I’m taking it and I had to pay for it myself this time and that put me in the hole $150 and I’m scared because I think I’m too stupid to pass this and I don’t want to lose my job and I don’t want the company to go down because my boss had so much faith in me and hired me because he thought I was smart and would learn quickly but all I’m proving is that I suck and I’m so bad at taking tests and that’s one of the reasons why I had to drop out of university and I feel like such a fucking failure and OH MY GOD I AM FREAKING THE FUCK OUT OVER THIS I WISH I COULD STOP. Why do I do this to myself?

Even if I’m a little bit remotely sad

I can come on here and feel a lot better. Thanks guys

I’m such an awkward human

Today I was setting up a new employee with his credentials to log in, and he was prompted to create a new password. My words, “You can set your little heart’s… desire to whatever you want password to be… *mumbles* I don’t English very well…”

Some people get baby fever…

I get husky fever c: I need one so badly lol


So please Sherlock fandom of the tumblr world

I am a diehard fan of the original stories, would I be disappointed with the show? I’ve only heard excellent things about it, and Benedict Cumberbatch is adorable and how I always pictured Mr. Holmes, but I’m just worried that my prejduce will make the show not good for me if it doesn’t follow decently. I NEED OPINIONS.

Watching Doctor Who is emotionally draining.

Guilty pleasure…

Pulling out sheet music I stole in high school from choir and sight reading complex music in foreign languages just to remember that I still got it.

Lol this is only the 3rd time in 5 years that I’ve changed my theme

And by changed my theme I mean I adjusted the code to different colors and like minor shit. And I’ve never changed my url. Shit takes too much effort to customize everything the way I like it like every 2 months I don’t know how you guys do it O.o


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